“You like because, you love despite…”
To the love of my life,
You and I coming together was serendipity at its best. Suddenly, the clichés about everything being “written in the stars” didn’t seem so corny anymore. I found you when I wasn’t even looking, and you came in like a whirlwind that exposed me to the kind of love I had craved all along. You’re everything I thought you never were, and nothing like I thought you could’ve been.
In the time that you were mine, you’ve seen all of me — the good, the bad and the ugly, and everything else in between. You stayed through it all and brought a sense of normality, that put all my demons to rest. For the first time, I believed that someone knew how to love me. And for that, I thank you.
In you, I found a lover, a brother, a father, a friend; and if I ever consider your going away a loss, that would be unfair to what we shared. So contrary to popular belief, I have only won. At least now I know, that there’s someone in the world, who knows my heart and wishes nothing but the best life for me. There’s someone who prays for me under the expansive night sky and there’s someone who longs to be able to make my pain go away. And for that, I thank you.
For us, I believe there is no ending, because I know for sure, that we are connected beyond any physical realm. You are with me on this journey, and I still turn to you – in happiness, in sorrow, in despair. And isn’t that the highest form of emotion? Unconditional, and ironically, unrestrained. Now that you’re gone, there’s no sense of fear left – because I’m free… to love you without boundaries, without questions that need to be answered and without an unsettling hope that was always too turbulent to grasp.
Yes, I will always dream of the things we could’ve done together, the places we could’ve been and the emotional facets we could’ve explored – but nevertheless, I will discover all of that, with you in my heart. You gave me an infinity within the numbered days. And for that, I thank you.
Wherever you are my love, if this reaches you, know that you will always have a home in my heart. You are my treasure, my hoard… and though I can’t keep you, I can never let you go.
In the words of Beethoven, “Ever thine, ever mine, ever ours.”
Love,
