It’s been a year since the world lost the legendary actor Irrfan Khan. On his first death anniversary, Irrfan’s son Babil has opened up about his last moments with his father and how he lost the will to live after losing him. In an interview with Times Of India, Babil says he went into deep depression and had no will to wake up. Babil credits his mother, Sutapa Sikdar, for being the strength of the family.
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Talking about the pain he felt when Irrfan screamed his name, and asked him to not leave the room, Babil says, “For the first few days, Mom was like how is that he is taking it so well? I was running around, doing everything, making sure everything was fine at home and at the hospital. It was really bad, though. I can’t explain the amount of pain he was going through when he was conscious. I particularly remember when they were going to put a catheter, and asked me to leave the room, and he almost yelled, ‘Babil, tum kahin mat jao mujhe chhod ke!’ They pulled me out of the room and he screamed my name. I never felt that much pain and helplessness. I just stood there outside, hearing him scream my name.”
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Babil explains that he was able to deal with it initially, but he “crashed” two days after Irrfan passed away. “I dealt with it well in that moment, but after he passed – initially, Mumma was surprised how well I was taking it – but two days after he passed away, I crashed. I just crashed. Everything shut off. I went into deep, deep depression. I can’t even explain. There was no will to wake up. I was very suicidal.”
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Babil says he still struggles a lot but it’s his mother, Sutapa Sikdar, who has become his strength. “I was done. I didn’t have any will to live. I still struggle with it a lot. And at that time, Mumma was the strength. She has always been the strength of our family. Throughout Baba’s career. You know everyone’s like Baba was this, Baba was that – but Baba wouldn’t have been anything without Mumma, she’s been the strength of the family.
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Babil is now all set to step foot in the industry, and will make his debut with Qala, which will be produced by Anushka Sharma.
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